counting down ,
Bro, yes or no, true or false, so long you hit your car, STEADY LAH! :D
Results' out, yes. Chosen schools, no. Last submission later though. About 12 hours plus later. Gotta think things through properly lah. Hahaha! But still, damn happy that my dad's receptive to my idea of not wanting to go to a JC.
At least, i feel less guilty now (:Maybe i'm too naive for you. After tonight, i don't know how i'm gonna feel for you. Maybe i'm still gonna be madly in love with you, but is it worth it? For a man like you...
finally,
results out, so very finally. the kept-in-suspense kind of feelings' all gone. YAY. congrats to all who've done well, or at least met their expectations. do push on, to those who have not met theirs. but whatever it is, there'll always be a way out no matter what happened.
If there's a will, there'll be a way. (:
sorry for the very frequent updates. i just needa blog. HAHAHA.
i'm going bonkers, really bonkers. i miss you, i really do. why cant it be February tomorrow? but when it comes, do not tell me "no, i dont".
it's time,
Counting down, to the last 12 hours and 48 minutes. The time long awaited for... After a long 4 years of hardships studying, the fruit is soon to bear. For this, i sincerely thank all whom remembered and drop messages to wish me luck. And hereby, i wish all good results tomorrow too :D
Group up with Mr Charles today was fruitful,
very in actual fact. The things learnt, the plannings made, and of course, the jokes cracked. Last 7 days, i shall put all distractions aside, and FIGHT!!! (:
the more i see you, the more i'm gonna miss you. you seem totally ignorant about our pact, but tell me you remember please.. i'm still, waiting for you.
the uncertainties, the times i missed.
HAHAHA, what on earth is happening?
To my friends, i've no idea what they want. Is it things that changed, or they have changed? So much so that, the once friendship which seems so strong has now shattered over some nonsense that some couldn't get over with.
Especially you, whom i've all along regarded as the good friends beyond words could say. The disappointments, i'll never forget.
To you, i've no idea what happened between us. Maybe its the time you want apart so we could both concentrate and do our things proper. But will you still come back to me like what you say when February comes? Can i still hold on to the faith i have in you?
Things are all so weird now that i've lost my directions. I missed the times we spent time rubbing our bruises in class, eating & sleeping in class, finding time to do our girls' talk over at one or another's place, plan for the bbq and many more. But as much as i missed those times, i wonder if those times means anything to you? And for you, I want so much for you to be by my side now... Is that all still possible? I asked myself, over and over again...
Happy Birthday 大姐!
First & foremost, a very happy 24th birthday to my 大姐 (:
Secondly, updates on recent issues. To kick start, it's the AGS & the DHA Chalet. AGS was
woah. It was at Conrad Intl, the ambience was absolutely great alongside great hosts and all hype-up colleagues (; The event was absolutely motivating, esp with the slides, and it ended well with supper at Makansutra. Many behaved like drunkards despite not drinking, and hung around well with the other people talking nonsense. Haha!
DHA Chalet was fun & enjoyable in a sense. Only get to reach the chalet at like 1am plus on the first day. Hung around feeling bored.. Then some girls' gathering was planned beside one of the mahjong tables which ended up having Mr Eric becoming Erica, Mr Alvin becoming Alvina which eventually ended up with Mr Charles, Vernon and Mr Jowell coming in sitting in for one round of 3 hours long of ghost stories. After that, it was close to dawn that Mr Zhitao went into Mr Charles' room for some talk that we soon joined in. Some gossiping session was held with the guys and finally ended up in dreamland at 7am but woke up at 9plus. Hah!
The second day of chalet began for me only at 5plus in the evening. Got in time for some preparations for the BBQ at 7pm. Everything was well prepped and was waiting for the management team's arrival before the bbq officially kick start. Some stupid SA-SE intro was needed to be done much later which ended up having me to be sabo-ed. Close to midnight, JPA decided to head out. Initially, we wanted to K, but it was too late. So we just headed to whitesands to get some drinks and slacked at the playground at the town park. It was then a second round of bbq when we got back then slept at close to 5am and woke up at 630am before heading home for some proper sleeep. LOL.
In a nutshell, the company events were still enjoyable. But still, sad to say, i wasnt exactly in the very right mood. Hah.
Thirdly, I've nothing much more left to be said. Except that, its only about a week more plus minus to getting results. Till then, it's still gonna be busy working, and working hard for a goal to be attained.
And till then, i'll still be missing you like how i'm missing you tonight.
more than just a random one,
tiredness, weariness, disappointment. these are all i felt for the past week, not even a slight tinge of joy. as much as i wanna stay positive, somewhere deep inside me, i could find no reasons for me to do so. be it for you, or for myself, i see nothing. as much as i hope there could be someone here by my side, someone, be it my good friend, or even someone i'm not close with, i've no idea where to find you.
many things happened recently.. as hard as i tried to put them aside or even outta my mind, they never failed to come back to me. i tried not thinking, but all that it brings back to me is that, it was all my fault. not my fault for whatever that has happened, but for knowing these people. all i feel inside me is nothing but regrets.
work has never been easy, nor getting easier. but this' gonna be a packed week with company events. AGS later on at night at Conrad Hotel followed by supper at Makansutra, DHA Chalet from 15th to 17th. i see enjoyment and fun in the next few days, but i doubt i'll attending with the very right mood i should have.
very much i hope i could cheer up a little, all i see myself doing is to down my sorrows with alcohol. maybe thats not the way, but who is there who truly understands me? there's never once i had one who could share my joy & tears with me.
as much as i miss you, i really hope that i've never known you.
i'm not a human,
GOD, please bloody save me. I NEED MORE SLEEP, MORE REST, MORE FUN, LESS LECTURES, LESS TALKS BY THE BORING TEACHERS, SHORTER ACADEMIC ORIENTATION & I NEED SCHOOL TO START LATER.School till now has been good (depending on times), esp with the new friends made, all crazy and fun to hang around with. Dawn, Matthew, Edwin, Hongxi, Annabelle, Amanda.. Yeah, these were from the previous OG. The new OG friends were all sporting & soooo surprising, my OG is like the limelight of the whole JC1 Orientation. Long story yeah.. Haha!
Anyways, i think i'll soon die of exhaustion. I've been sleeping for only 2 hours every night, attending school for close to 10 hours everyday and i'm now off to work. I seriously think that death would be a better option for me. POOF.
Happy 2008 (:
first & foremost, i wish all a
late Happy New Year (:
secondly, pictures not up yet, i know. but well, i'm sorry but it gotta wait. have been really busy for the past week & even on NYE itself i was working. rather sad, but oh well. at least after that, got back to office and enjoyed myself with the rest of the Rhinos at Padang for fireworks then to Robinson Rd & did smth i've never done before. haha! then we headed to lau pat sat for supper. hahaha! however, it was rather a pity that our BGM, Mr Charles could not join us for he headed to Speedy then to Dragonfly & Zouk where smth damn disgusting happened. come to think about it, it was WOAH. hahaha :p
thirdly, the new year is into its 3rd day already so quickly. think 2008 is gonna zoom by just like how 2007 did. but yeah, hereby i wish Jeremy a Happy 22nd Birthday (:
lastly, i am soooo gonna bathe and sleep. i bloody have to wake up at bloody 6am for blooody school at SRJC tmr. DAMNIT. grrrrs. GOOD NIGHT (:
